Re-post from April of 2008

On August 22 of this year, I thought about this song again, and decided that since I could not find it anywhere on the web, (when I Googled the words, I got my own blog!) I decided to use a little of my musicianship and transcribe it from my brain onto paper. I was so desperate to hear it again! I lost the CD about 6 years ago and somehow, I was able to still hear the chords in my head. It was tricky to transcribe because the songwriter substituted different chords than the traditional way the melody would lead me to write, but I think that's one of the things that makes the music so beautiful. 

This past Sunday I had an idea! My friend (who has a great voice but has yet to be "discovered" in our church) can sing this while I play it and her husband can play with us on the guitar. I already have the chord chart for him, so all I have to do is teach her the song. I told her the words over the phone Sunday afternoon, and when she Googled them, she found my blog....weird. We met Sunday evening to go over it, and we are hoping to share it next month in church.  If we do, I am going to have my husband record it, and I will publish it on this blog.

Then another weird thing happened. One of the girls that we took to camp the year we got this CD  messaged me on Facebook this morning. Her roommate was wondering who sang this song, and when she Googled it, my blog came up. Maybe I'm not the only one who loves this song enough to create a fuss over it on the internet.  

If whoever wrote this song finds this blog, PLEASE leave a comment and let me know who you are, what you call this song and why it isn't published anywhere on the internet!

It was a long day, even for Jesus;
First the news came that His cousin had died.
Then seeking quiet, wanting to mourn, 
He got in his boat and left and probably cried.
And I've felt that feeling so many times.
I've let that feeling escape through my eyes.

Thank You, for being Jesus, 
For putting on the same skin
That all of us are wearing,
So we would know that You know
Just how we feel.

Approaching land, He saw the crowd standing.
They'd followed Him on foot from their towns.
He chose compassion over exhaustion.
He healed their sick, and then He fed the whole crowd
With five loaves, two fish and a prayer up to heaven.
That once insufficient amount fed five thousand.

And on my weakest days you feel my pain,
And on my saddest nights you know just why.
You feel what's real to me.

Thank you for being Jesus 
So we would know that You know
Just how we feel.
This is a favorite song of mine. I don't know the title or the artist who sings it, but it gives me a new perspective on Matthew chapter 14. If you keep reading the chapter, you'll see that His day did not end until well after midnight whenever he walked out onto the water to the disciples' boat. 

"There is a God, and I am not Him"

My dad said that to me a while back, and it stuck. (He's a pretty smart guy who knows a lot of words. :o)

So, if I am not God, that means that I am not in control. I don't know everything. As much as I would like to micromanage my life down to the minute for the rest of my existence, I can't.  Because I am not God. And if I don't like that, well, whenever I get my own universe, I can do things differently. (That's from Francis Chan's Crazy Love.)

I am starting to realize that being in control all the time is much more difficult than trusting God. He's in charge anyway, whether or not I try to be in control, so why do I always try to take over His job? It's presumptuous of me to think I could do His job better than He can.

When I try to be in control, it wears me out! I get tired of carrying my "burdens" by myself. I get tired off trying to make everything perfect, because it never, is and it never will be.

Are you like me? Are you a control freak? Do you flip out whenever things don't go exactly as you planned? Or do you lay your burdens at the feet of Jesus?

"Cast all your care on Him, because He cares about you." 1 Peter 5:7 HCS

"Don't worry about anything. Instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7 NLT

In other words, instead of stressing out because it's not perfect, pray and be thankful. That's how you find peace.

I wish I could say that I've got this one down, but I don't. I stress out all the time. God is working on me, though. I think He is using Owen's accident to help me understand these things in a different way, all over again.

"I know it's going to be okay when I hear You say, 'Come to me when your weary. I'll give you hope when you're hurting. I'll give you rest from your burden now.'" -Jamie Grace, "Come to Me" from Matthew 11:28